Grieving
11.02.2020 I lost my grandmother yesterday. It was expected. She has been sick for a while. The night before when she was admitted, I already have the sense that we are going to loose her. I think I am well prepare for it. While on my way going back to hometown, my mom texted saying that she has already gone. My heart sank..why do i feel like this? I am ready. I know that this time is coming. Yet why do I have this devastating feeling? I guess even when we thought we are prepared for something to happen, but when it actually does, when it actually becomes real, it still doesn't feel the same as how you thought you have prepare for it. My heart is broken, shattered and numb. Nothing is going to be the same. I miss you Opah, and I will always miss you, your soothing voice and your love. Till we meet again there. Al- Fatihah. Hjh Rafia'ah Bt Hj Arshad (1936-2020)